The other night as I was trying to fall asleep this question, with such quickness and authority, popped into my brain, “if this is my life for the next few years would God say to me “well done good and faithful servant?”
It had my attention and I knew I wasn’t going to be able to fall asleep until I thought it through. So, I shot straight up and grabbed my journal to start writing about it.
These are some of my musings. I think we have this ideal view of what we want our life to be like, and then we could fully follow Jesus. I know I’ve fallen into the trap of thinking; when I get my dream job and are more financially stable, then I could help that person in need; or then, I could witness to that co-worker.
But I think far too often we get caught up with planning, and longing for the next stage of life that we miss the blessings in the current one.
Maybe you’re single and want to be married, and you’re so sick of the waiting, you want to be in the next stage of life already. Or maybe you’re already married and want children.
Or maybe you’re studying and thinking I just want to be working in the industry already.
Or maybe you’re in this season of waiting on God to open the doors for the next and meanwhile, you’re doing the mundane. You’re going to the job (even though it’s not your ideal) and you’re cooking meals, and catching up with people. All the while thinking, hoping and longing for the next stage.
Or maybe it’s something else entirely, but you’re using it as an excuse for why you’re not participating in building the Kingdom of God. I’ve been there.
I’ve lived this way for a long time. Always seeking the next experience, the next goal. It’s sometimes a really good thing, it keeps me motivated and seeking exciting adventures and no one can tell me I’m settling for the mundane. But recently I realised that it also means I miss the good in this season.
We are called to be on mission with God WHEREVER we are. And I need to view my current life, this place God has me in RIGHT NOW, as my mission ground. This is not the bus stop on the way to the real thing. This is now.
And I need to be living into that.
I need to be loving God and loving others right where I am now.
Let me back up a little bit, and explain why this question popped into my brain on that sleepless night. I had been thinking about success. More specifically, I was questioning is the life I am living at the moment, a life I would consider as successful?
I thought about the multiple part-time jobs I’m working, the few blog posts I’m writing down, and the friends I catch up with frequently. And I realised that this wasn’t what I viewed as being successful. I am so used to measuring my ideal of success to what society tells me. And society tells me that I should want a full-time job, want a relationship, a house, and the status and freedoms that come from those things. And when I look at that definition of success and my current reality, I come up lacking. I am seriously behind in the game and that is extremely disappointing and disheartening.
I’ve had some time since that night to redefine my definition of success. To re-evaluation and consider is my life successful? And still, I would say I wasn’t being successful, but not because of society’s view of success, but because of God’s.
See, if we are called to live lives of love then I’m missing out. I’m missing out because I’m so focused on where I want to be (overseas on the mission field), and not where God has me right now (working part-time jobs in Melbourne). I’m failing because I missed the chance to have a real conversation with my colleague yesterday as I was on my phone replying to messages, instead of being present. I miss the chance to be involved in things happening in my community and in the lives of those that need help. I justify my decisions by telling myself that one day when I have my life sorted out, I’ll do those things.
But what if ‘one day’ never comes?
If you too find yourself living in a season that is not your dream, and you are waiting for the day when you can finally join God’s mission, I’d say you will always miss out.
God has you where you are right now for a purpose. And he has asked you to “go out into all the world and make disciples.” (Matthew 28:19-20).
But the beautiful thing, the thing that keeps me going is this:
You are not alone, He promises he will go with you, and He always keeps His promises.
It might be messy, it might be hard, but there is so much joy to be had in joining in God’s mission and loving the people in your world, right where you are now.
So now the question I’m wrestling with, is how? How am I going to love, and make disciples, and how are you going to do it?
And honestly, it’s nothing ground breaking- but I am trying to listen to the Spirit’s promptings and have the courage to do the things He asks.
Thank you so much for joining me on this journey!